I've lost my spark

Remember when I told you all that I'm okay by myself. Well in addition to that, I fear that I may have lost my spark. I'm not interested in going out and doing anything and/or being with anyone. I don't want anyone near, or get attached. I used to be romantic and believe in all that romance stuff. Not so much now.

And the scary part is: I'm perfectly fine with that. I just want someone that I'm real cool with, chill only on occasions by my invitation only, we have sex, and I send them on their way. No strings, no attachments, no commitment, nothing serious. Only be ready when I call, and then go home.

This is what I want. I didn't used to be like this. I don't know if I want to go back to being a romantic or caring about people. As quiet as it's kept, I'm afraid to, only for the simple fact that I love myself the way I am.

Til next time

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