Happy Place



I have finally found my happy place. It took this long, but I'm finally in a place where I'm content.I have a great job that I love, and I believe that I'm becoming a better person. I don't feel as though I need anyone to compliment or complete me. Last weekend, I had this guy come over. I've known of him for a while. (We met up and had sex before) Anyway, he came over and spent the weekend. Of course, things escalated and it became physical. While he was there and we were together, my mind drifted to someone else. My mind drifted to Micah. While I was holding him, kissing him, and "being with" him, Micah was my one and only thought.

I don't know what that was about seeing as how that isn't going to happen. At least not right now if ever. But anyway, while I was with Ahmad I've come to the realization that I am perfectly fine by myself. I am great alone. Even though I'm alone, I'm not lonely, and I feel great. I believe that I've finally gotten accustomed to being by myself and accepted that realization that there's not someone for everyone and content with myself. I don't even desire sex that much at all. I don't know what this is all about, but I'm liking it... I'm loving the new me and the new attitude. It's funny. Now that I'm not sweating the men anymore, they keep hounding me. I find it funny. My friend Demetria believes that I will be in a relationship soon, but I totally disagree. I'm not relationship oriented, and don't really care to be in one. I feel that my personality and mood doesn't fit the one for that of a relationship type of person.

Anyways.... I'm finally happy and at peace with myself and I've reached my happy place. It only took 27 years.

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