Something 2 Say

I haven't been feeling like myself lately. Well, not the happy self. I just go home, get in the bed and sleep. People at work have noticed a change in me. They noticed that I'm not my perky happy self. This I contribute to the medication. (Seroquel 150 MG) Even that's not helping. I have noticed something about myself: I am or at least I could be a horrible person at times. Instead of me being genuinely happy for people, at times I get jealous. Like seriously jealous, and that's not cool. There are certain things that I want in life, and some of those are a bit out of my reach and out of my control, but I still want it anyway. However, I see others with it and I'm like... "Really?" Then there are those that keep saying, "Wait your turn, it's not your season yet..." Blah blah blah. I don't wanna hear that! I am kind of getting tired of waiting. I kinda think that the holidays have triggered my depression, which is weird becaus...

I was watching the Logo channel today, and an old favorite, "Noah's Arc" came on. In the past, I was always excited to see this show on television because I thought that it represented me. Then I got to thinking as the episode futher developed. That couldn't be farther from the truth. Noah's Arc, and The DL Chronicles (Which I auditioned for by the way before my epiphany) do not truly represent me. They don't relate to the issues of every day life here for Same Gender Loving individuals of color such as myself. This show paints a picture with statuesque men of racial diversity, (the only thing that I can relate to is the darker skin) who are rampantly being sought after for sex and spend the majority of their time discussing sex, or listening to Noah bitch about Wade and flip flopping (and in some cases cheating) on and with Wade. I may be incorrect, and someone please correct me if this is the case, (which I know it is) but there were only two episodes of...